Well on with the details, which is the life of it -- " - From Desolation Angels by Jack Kerouac.
This woman standing in front of me line at the BART station was texting and I snuck a peak. She had begun one message: "um, who are these magical people taking care of Michael..." Really. She began a text with "um." Texting is a succinct communication to the point that people generally go with "k" instead of "ok" because you know that extra letter. But she actually tossed in an um. I didn't know whether to be confused or impressed or shocked. So I went with awe struck. Good choice no?
MUNI drivers called a sick out today and I like a lot of people didn't know so I waited 30 minutes for a trolley. Idiot. I support the workers. Power to the people. One big union. Right on. But I was peeved at the world 30 -- friggin' minutes. On a Monday. When I happened to have a lot to do before charging in to my first class with a burst of "Good morning everybody!" And I better get a good response. Dig.
So what I had to do see was take a cab. Can you imagine taking a fucking cab to work? Put me out $12. Really. But hey I performed a miracle and was ready for first class with time to spare so dashed to Starbucks for a coffee -- grande dark roast. And of course didn't have time to take my wallet out of my jacket pocket and jacket was hanging on a hook so couldn't pay but they know me so I was like comped. Cool. Had my fix and it was "good morning everybody!" The response was tepid so I demanded an encore. Got it and time to talk prepositions.
Had to walk to BART on trip home. That was 30 minutes on the nose which was as you may recall was how long I'd waited for a trolley that never came. Got on a train backtracking to get a seat because you know I'd just walked an unexpected half hour and needed to sit. So I did and saw a lot of people. Man folks come in all sizes and shapes and colors and wear all kind of clothes and smell different and act different and avoid each other and talk and laugh and hide from truths because the truth is so difficult because there it is. Truth is in front of you and obvious and uncomfortable if you don't welcome it. You've got to learn how to embrace it and accept it and make it part of your life. You can't hide. You can't drown it in liquor or obscure it with drugs or pretend its something different because of your religion or political ideology. You need to swim in it. Let it course through your veins. Dance with the truth. It will make you free. And happy. If that happiness comes out of pain well so does life. Or do you not remember being born? Say you don't.
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Dinner was really good. The missus outdid herself. She was outdone and by her own self. Being surpassed by yourself must really be kind of weird ya know like your schizophrenic. Not that the wife is. Far from it. I'm the loony tune in the relationship. People look at us and wonder what the hell she's doing stuck with me. Hell I wonder that myself and I am me -- last I checked anyway for all I know I'm somebody else now which would be weird because if your not yourself....I have had days when I haven't been myself but then again I haven't actually been anyone else. If you're not yourself today are you someone else? Who? Are you someone who is alive at the same time like you're a doppelgänger? Or have you assumed the form of someone who is dead? Or perhaps even someone who has not yet been born. Maybe you're just fictional. Not a real person at all. These are things to ponder next time you find yourself saying: I'm just not myself today.
I'd be careful.
Do aliens assume human form and walk among us? Are they the people having loud cell phone conversations on buses? It's hard to imagine that a human would do such a thing. I can totally see humans killing maiming and torturing we do that shit all the time (not me personally mind you but our species). But somehow it seems unimaginable that a human would be stupid and insensitive enough to start yakkng louldly on a cell phone while in a public conveyance surrounded by fellow human beings. I believe I'm on to something which means we just may have to give a pass to those assholes talking on their cells on the bus. They're from other galaxies and just don't know.
So why walk among us? Why not just introduce themselves? "Hi my name is Karl I'm from such and so planet in such and so galaxy a billion miles from here. Nice to meet you." What we're going to do is say "hi" back and maybe ask a question or two. But I see it from their perspective. Next thing you know they're doing the talk show circuit and before long they're on Dancing With the Stars. Totally not worth it. Better for them they just observe and report back and if they're race is at all intelligent they'll vow to stay away from us. Although I bet you they'd bring back some pizza.